Well, let me put it like this.....I didn't wake up either and have a drink, I could quite easily go to a bar and have none or one drink and leave. I have never lost a job or a friend purely because of drinking and I have not lost a relationship because of drinking.
I also have had an extremely heavy alcohol abuse problem for 25 years. And you almost certainly do too. Just my opinion to counterbalance your AV. Clearly you will decide for yourself.