Hello:
1. Never compare your alcoholism to others. It's counterproductive.
2. You got here for a reason, there must be something making you question your relationship with alcohol.
I hear AV all over your post... Not remembering most weekends in the last 30 years isn't normal in my opinion. I never woke up needing a drink, I was never "physically addicted". I could have weeks were I didn't touch the stuff but most times I did it was on. Alcoholics are people, different and unique.
This place is full of knowledge. I hope it serves your needs.