Welcome Rosie! This is a great community with a ton of support. Bottom line though is you have to want sobriety... Want it more than anything else today.
I'm new to recovery, and this community has made all the difference between me being drunk and staying sober.
Stay close to SR, read through old threads. If you are like many of us here, you will find a lot of stories that are almost identical to yours in many ways.
Welcome to SR.