countrygirl....we WILL bear with you. That is the reason that this forum exists.
In life...standing at a crossroad or a time of decision making is not easy. It is like standing on the top of a mountain and looking down at the valley that is covered in fog.
But,....if you keep true to yourself and trust in the universe...that it will supply all that you need...it works itself out....inch by inch....piece by piece.
dandylion