Welcome, Jay
Glad to have you with us. Your home life sounds stressful for you. Hope your mum can sort out her meds for a more peaceful life for all of you.
I wish you every success in moderating your alcohol, I know that I tried for around 20 years to do that with no success- it seemed like I could for a few weeks, and then I lost control over it again.
Well done for the long post, it helps to write it all sometimes.
We're not strangers now.