Hey everyone,
thanks a lot for your replies and for caring, it means a lot to me. It's 3 in the morning here in Germany and I feel wide awake, after having 3,5 litres of beer. Not a good sign, I know. I'm actually not at school anymore but at university, don't know what you call that in the US of A. I generally don't have a sense of purpose in life and feel totally disorganised and discontented with everything. Probably one of the reasons why I keep drinking. I don't want to end up homeless, but I fear if I continue this madness, it will be that way.
Thanks for caring!