Yes that's my other issue.......I'm a caretaker with a caretaker mentality. I do it at home and went into a caretaking type of profession. It's what I know how to do. I took care of my mom and her random boyfriends dealing with their drinking since I was young, my dad who was a pill addict and when he was dying, and my grandpa when he was dying. I've been taking care of other people my whole life. Everyone else's rock. I don't remember the last time I felt the freedom to just do what I want to do for my own happiness instead of doing what I need to do because someone else caused a consequence for us. At my age, you'd think I'd have figured this out yet.