no bashing from me either as you seem like your starting to face yourself and thats all anyone can ever hope for with others is that a penny or 2 starts to drop
only complaint i would have is lose the music. as to me i could spend most of my time listening to sad records and think there all about me or the song was written about me and off i would go into fantasy land again
how i used to love drink and listening to sad records i thought it was the time of my life feeling so sorry for myself to music : )
so i had to stop doing that same as other things i had to stop doing as they turned out to be no good for me either ; )
good luck to you