Originally Posted by
Thepatman 
Thanks. The mountain ahead seems impossible to climb sometimes. But I have to stop thinking I need to climb it alone. You folks are my lifeline, i surrender my trust to you.
"It's not the mountains ahead that wear you out; it's the grain of sand in your shoe".
Time to shake that grain of sand from your shoe.
No bashing from me, either, Patman.
You can do this, Patman. You have done it before; you need to add 'acceptance' and 'finality' to your plan. Accept that alcohol has nothing good to offer you. Accept that moderation is not possible. Make it final.
Rooting for you, my friend.
P.S. - I am so sorry that your heart is hurting.