Your right. I know in my head you are right. Why can't I just stop this before I turn into a total basket case? I go do stuff to distract myself and I seem to do my best when I'm with the girls but I go back to work tonight and I kept my girls at my mom's so I'm alone right now. When I'm with them I feel better. I don't talk about it or dwell on it. It's being alone out here I think possibly.