Hey patman. You got my support bud. I'm in early sobriety myself. There is a dangerous thought in my head thinking I can drink again one day and it will be different. I know it will not deep down. I have a wedding to go to and vacation in the summer and my av is telling me I could drink on vacations. But even if I just drank on vacation it would still be way over the top and literally anything could happen to me after that first drink. My brain has changed too much. Not that I ever drank moderately to begin with. The first time I drank I was 13 and still over did it and wound up with alcohol poisoning. Sorry for ranting. You can do this. Battle lost but the war is still raging. Get back in the fight