jjj, yes I have a counselor that I've been seeing quite some time. It was to help me with the verbal abuse I was receiving and my separation from my husband. She has yet to be made aware of the drug addiction though. She's booked until December but I put myself on her on cancellation list. I like what you said about what to say to my co workers. I think I could pull that off. I don't want to lie either, just for right now not to say so much that I break down at work. In front of my friends and family, it's okay but just not there. I will tell them at some point like hopefu4 said. I just need a bit of time initially I think.