45 minutes of my life in a dirty smelly gin mill with cheap drinks. On my 3rd grapefruit and vodka (pints) after 3 beers at home (walked to the bar a few blocks away). Went to my godsons bday party and had 5 miller 64's, which is VERY LIGHT for me last night. (The whole 6 hours) . After last night I thought I could do a light night tonight . I know I can't drink like a normal person. Try again tomorrow. Not asking for advice. Just venting. Having a hard time doing this . Aa is not for me. Wife is sober 6 years. It's time for me but I didn't do it tonight. I know what I have to do. I have to "start stopping" again tomorrow. Oh and yes 3 pints of liquor in 45 smelly minutes with what are some folks who are between street homeless drunk and those who could be.