Slipped Again
Yesterday, I had my first AA meeting near where I live. I was looking for additional support. I had been nearly two weeks sober and was feeling great and then at the meeting, a complete ******* started on me for no reason. It looked like he wanted to get physical, so I just left in a huff.
It really upset me and I lost control of myself. I went into a bar and had a drink. After 2 pints, I went home and really shaken by my experiences.
2 weeks, I cant believe it. 2 Weeks in and I was doing fine, no real temptations and then some idiot takes out his insecurities on me and I throw it away.
He starts telling me, how I cant make it in AA or stay sober if I dont believe in God. I said you mean a Higher Power, he said; No God.
Anyway, I have even had a drink tonight, but tomorrow I am starting day 1 again and this time no more AA.