Hi there I'm really interested reading your story, sounds to me you have lots of common anxieties related to withdrawal, I too had the worry of seizures and being alone and shamefully in charge of my children I was literally terrified! I went cold turkey but the withdrawal was so horrendous I needed medical intervention which involved going on a drip to receive thiamine and b12 and then had a carbodioxepide (think it's spelt differently) but it was to take the withdrawal symptoms away and to prevent seizure (a benzo basically) I also got in touch with the drug and alcohol specialist team the next day. It's different for you (I'm in the uk) I'm not sure what services are available but I would deffo recommend seeing a doctor! Alcohol withdrawal is awful as well as the night sweats, the chemical smelling sweat and urine, I had crippling stomach and chest pains which needed to be looked at! Don't chance it see someone today :-) good luck, remember you can post on here any time of day if you are feeling horrid and need to chat or have your anxieties aired .... :-)