I didn't honor my sobriety, and did not use my tools. I stupidly thought I could have that one drink at a party. It is never one drink. It doesn't work that way for me.
I just need to figure out a way to get sober without wreaking my life. Meaning, I can't go to detox right now. I need to maintain an income, and show up for things. I need to do this without putting my health jeapardy while also realizing that I may be at risk for some scary withdrawal stuff.
I am always thinking about Dee's experience. I understand he had a series of mini strokes. We are all glad that he survived and creates such an hospitiable place for us. I just always think about his words of caution when people stop drinking without medical help.