jodygrind11.
And I also want to say, from what I've read in your posts that it seems like every day something is happening to where you're feeling overwhelmed. Who wouldn't?
I believe you came to this board and are posting because you are seeking help, and sometimes all we need at the moment is for our feelings to be validated and to know that others have felt that way too. I know I've reached out in recovery and continue to do so, and at times not very graciously, but I have attained enough humility in sobriety to where I know I can't do this alone and don't want to anymore.
You've learned enough on here to know that we can't fix other people, nor can we control what they say, think, or feel about us. We've just got to seek God's guidance in our own particular situation. God bless you and your family.