Despete, There is something between us.28 yrs .Just because hes not here i feel the after maths very hard to deal with. We talk or text once in a while but am trying to have no contact now. We have no family r friends here to talk to and he was my best friend for all these years. Take that back i did have 1 friend here from when i lived in kc mo before. Stsrted going to chuch with her n i really liked it. But she hasnt called me not 1 time since my son came home. She told someone she was afraid i would ask her to sit with hime sometime n she didnt want too. We have been friends for a long time n this has really hurt me. I would of bent over backwards to help her if this happened to her daughter. Going to find another church bc this church is so small it would feel very awkward for me..Just feeling very alone