Originally Posted by
ArtFriend 
I know intellectually that I need to stop drinking, but deep down, I almost feel like I don't care enough about myself to quit. And without that, it makes it very hard to get to that place where you know you MUST quit. Make sense??
I am so sorry about all you had to go through, some of your posts were very hard to read.
I can't say that I relate to all you went through. But in regards to this specific quote, it
really speaks to me. I need to be sober for my mom, who is showing decline, and will likely need me. I need to be sober for my close friends, who have expressed some concern about my drinking. I need to be sober for my sister, who relies on me as a brother and friend. But when it gets to simply needing to be sober
for me, it's like I hit a road block. I have trouble of thinking of myself as valuable... you know? And that's been such a consistent theme in my losing battle with alcoholism. And I didn't totally realize that until your post.