Originally Posted by
bradley26 
...even though i hate how drinking makes me feel i kinda want to get all my drinking in now before i finally quit for good. Am i deluding myself?
Yes.
You make it sound like your quitting in 2015 is a done deal. You've been a member of SR since Nov 2012, and struggling to quit drinking the entire time. And now you want to launch this new promise of sobriety with a drinking spree.
Delusional? More like the insanity of alcoholism.
If you are intent on quitting, quit. Today.