So many people die from this, Bradley.
Not only that but you could do irreversible damage to your liver, your hips, your heart, your brain.
Do some googling about the physical ramifications of just drinking. Never mind the possibility of an accident or overdose. You only get one chance with the body you are abusing, and sometimes it doesn't warn you before it shuts down.
Please stop drinking today. There is always going to be some reason to put it off - no good reason, though.