Difference Between Alcoholic and Dependance
Firstly I have drank for 4 weeks today.
The reason for this was after a particular heavy session of spirits I attempted suicide and was admitted to a secure mental unit. I have been out for 2 weeks now and I am back working, exercising and generally recovering.
I have had the occasional moment of weakness where I felt like drinking but these have passed as quickly as they have come.
I have tried to note the things that I did with alocohol and came up with the following.
1. I was drinking spirits (high alcohol content to get drunk quickly at least 4 times a week)
2. I was hiding these bottles in the house (empty usually after I had drank them)
3. I was pretending I hadnt drunk when quite obviously I had...
4. I would drink heavily in social situations, usually drinking a half bottle of spirits BEFORE I went out to social events
5. I would try and drink alocohol the morning after a heavy nite as I didnt want to be sober
6. I would drink secretly around my children (this i regret badly)
This has been going on for a few years till i have decided enough which was after this event.
My detox was awful, couldnt sleep for days in the hospital, shaking hands, sweating constantly, heart palputations, depression and anxiety...
I am a recovering alcoholic.. I havent been able to admit it yet?
What you think?