Originally Posted by Briar

Thanks for responding to me. You guys have some good advice that makes a lot of sense. I'm trying to hold it in my mind. A couple people asked about my history. I've been working on recovery for the past two years. Last year I got sober for seven months but lost it about a year ago when I got depressed and withdrew from the people around me. Over the past year I've quit a handful of times but never could get it. I've been in therapy with an addiction specialist for two years, on SR, and during this past month I've been attending LifeRing meetings (which I missed last week because I was drunk). I am fortunate to have a lot of resources and support available to me, and I feel like a real jerk for drinking anyway. I do want to quit. I want a better life. I don't know why I keep sabotaging myself.