Wow. I can't say how much I relate to ALL of you. Deeply.
I never thought I'd be that person saying, "He's become someone I don't know anymore." He used for a while and was still recognizable. But all that's going away so fast, day by day.
It hurts so freaking bad, to talk to him on the phone and hear him sounding cruel and dead inside, or just to get a text that says "Bitch." From someone I thought was the epitome of sweet, it's just such a haunting feeling.
I will really try to remember what you said, MLH. This limbo is ridiculous. And his using has nothing to do with me. It is a thing that's happening, I don't have to attach to it, or understand it. I don't need the past. I need the present.