I have insurance, I know what I need, but I refuse, I guess my paranoia and stupidity are going to kill me. I don't know what to say, or do anymore. I do things that are bad and don't help me, but I always don't seek help. Weird right, why wouldn't I seek help, I think that every day. I should use my medicaid, and get help.... I am happy to have insurance again, but I am scared, changing scares me, I am paranoid, trusting people and things is hard for me, it took me months to trust all of you on SR>