Update
Brother is in bad shape, calling me to talk
He is very ill and the doctors are not treating him - whether or not he has contacted them recently I don't know
He left a voice mail last night and I feel HORRIBLE
He sounds so weak and scared, god knows I have done what I can
I am feeling guilty as sin and am feeling sick over it
He is going to die alone, living in someone else's spare room, it just kills me and I am afraid to call him back
