Originally Posted by
ItsJustMe89
Its like I want to be in two worlds at the same time. I want to continue to drink, and I want to be in recovery too. Or I am not sure I want to be in recovery and I am not sure I can admit powerless over alcohol and Im not sure I want to live a sober lifetime.
I just cant decide which way I want to go and make a commitment.
You can't have both. And at this point you don't, you are simply drinking.
Sobriery is possible for anyone, but not without committment on a daily basis. Perhaps you could make a list of the pros and cons of each to see for yourself?