Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
Some people, and I'm not saying this is you, are hooked on despair as much as they are hooked on a drug. Why?
I think as humans, if we do something a lot it is because there is some reward in it for us. You say you don't like reliving old trauma. Yet you do. So what are you getting out of it?
Whenever I get in a depressed state my mind just seems to focus on all the negative thoughts it can come up with. That is a good question tho, I don't think you get anything good out of those kind of thoughts.