Welcome to SR!
Originally Posted by
CP3 
I have done it for so long it is who I am.
This is incorrect. In fact, it's pure bullspit. My addiction used to tell me the same thing. So much easier for it to control me when I believed it was true.
Drinking is not who you are, it is what you did. Sounds to me like it's time to do something new.
Decide. Commit. Act.
Make a plan.
Work the plan.
YOU can do this.
