It sounds like you are doing well, especially after talking to that doc: he really said some wise things.
I can totally relate to the conflicting emotions and the dilemma we encounter when on an antabuse cure. I used an antabuse cure in conjunction with outpatient therapy for close to 3 years. On and off. I went off the program feeling strong and was drinking again within 5 weeks. Back again, off again. Well, you get the picture.
Despite the frequent relapsing though, I still feel that I benefited from antabuse because I think in my case it kept me off the booze long enough to stop experiencing the cravings.
Like training wheels? Probably. I think we all recover rather differently because we are all a little different. some people walk away from their last drink and never go back. Some don't. But, despite my early waverings, Ive reached a place of really solid sobriety and never see alcohol as a solution for anything anymore.