Originally Posted by
Serenidad 
Thanks Hawks! I can't drink but I want to drink. I don't want to drink but I want to. Does that make sense? Crazy!
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Yep, 100% sense.
For some the mental obsession fades with time, and for others it doesn't.
Personally, I went to 7 meetings a week for two years and waited for the obsession to lift.
It didn't and I drank again.
This time around in AA, I have plunged into steps.
84 days sober, haven't had any mental obsession since the 40 day mark.
The difference between meetings and steps is chalk and cheese.
What seemed like the easier softer way, for two years, was anything but.