Healingwillcome.....it is so hard to have a child with addiction issues...no matter what the age. You can't divorce your child. That is why I think it is so important to have live human support. One can't just stuff your feelings forever....and, most others either can't understand or just get tired of hearing about it.
I know that you have been to alaon in the past. Do you think you could find a group that has several parents of adult children in it? I know that some do.
Tomorrow I will give you the names of a couple of books specifically for mothers of adult children with addiction issues.
You are not alone....there are many of us mothers who understand how you must be feeling.
dandylion