Originally Posted by
Simpleman1979 
So I was kinda wondering if anybody else does this: when I get fired up and motivated to stop, it is usually on a day that I have already deemed a drinking day. Like, I get all happy and driven and start looking forward to what life will be like without booze, but I’m starting to realize what’s really making me happy in those times is knowing I’m gonna be hammering booze later on and it’s ok because I’ve “decided to stop.”
I used to do that. I had countless negotiations with my addiction. Or, I thought I was having a negotiation.
I'll do this one last time and then you'll leave me alone starting on Monday, right?
One day I realized that sumbeach never held up his end of the bargain. He just lied to me to get what he wanted.
I don't negotiate with my addiction anymore. I get better bargains from the wall - it doesn't promise me anything, it just ignores me.
Best of Luck!
