but my love for him is so strong and I don't want to give up
Well, I won't argue with this. Like I said, Purple, I'm not trying to solve your problems. You're an adult, and you have to make what you feel are your best decisions.
I will leave you with this, however.
Romantic love can leads us to making decisions we otherwise wouldn't make. And I speak from experience when I say this. The lesson I learned the hard way is just because we love someone doesn't mean we should be with them.
In any event, I'm glad you found us, and I hope as the night goes on, others will respond to your post. Enjoy the rest of your night.
Z