I can relate to the emotional roller coaster for sure. I found that embracing my hobbies and things that I had left behind in my addiction helped refuel the fire. I also agree with Dee, that consulting a good doctor can be helpful for many. Ultimately, for me it comes down to some patience, time, and getting back to the things I cared about other than drinking and drugging. You will get there. Best of luck and congrats on your sobriety!