Yeah, it's so frustrating. I wish I could jus be a social drinker. It's all been going well the last three months, though it was somewhat of a challenge. I'd do stuff like set an alarm on my phone to signal me to leave, or intentionally schedule something in the AM that I knew I couldn't miss or be hungover for.
It went haywire last night since one of my friends showed up late, but I think that just shows how impossible the balancing act is. My hangover is pretty much gone now and just feeling worse and worse mentally about what happened.
Today, I've made plans to be out of town the next two weekends, just to avoid temptations. Tomorrow, I have my day mostly mapped out. Tonight, I have no desire to touch the vodka in my freezer. I can't bring myself to pour it out, but at least for tonight, no temptation to drink it.