Can this be done alone. Completely alone?
I have no real friends here. I have family but no one even close to my age and they don't want to hear anyones problems. They just tell you to pray about it (nothing wrong with that, but it feels like a cop out). I have no significant other, I haven't in a while. I work with one other person, but see several throughout the day...I only work two days a week though. I go to church about 3-4 nights a week (but everyone is old it seems, like 60)I live in a very rural area and AA meetings are almost an hour a way...not that I would mind the drive, I just couldn't afford the gas.
So I'm wondering, if I stopped using tomorrow, and it was just me and the thoughts in my head, do I even stand a chance? (Already while I'm typing this, wanting, wishing, dreaming of being normal and sober-I keep thinking, 'what is the point in being sober', 'what will change', "will anything even change')
I don't even give myself a chance at this. Really, what's the point?