Coming clean
I drank wine last night. Didn't even get thru day 2!
Trigger: my brother
Brief back story (very condensed): he thinks I killed my mother. I took care of her in her final months (moved her in with me) but she ended up dying shortly after moving in (within 4months). Brother literally says I killed her by moving her across country to live with me.
Incident last night: brother leaves nasty voicemail. He was drunk as usual.
My reaction: initial anger, but quickly turned to sadness and feelings of despair.
Coping mechanism: get a bottle of wine
Followup this morning: still very sad with a nice layer of guilt on top.