No, I am not being "forced" by anyone other than myself. I WANT to quit drinking with every fiber of my being. But I can't seem to stop. It makes me horribly sad and frustrated. I wake up every single morning absolutely SURE, 100% CERTAIN that I will not drink and then I do. I DO!!!!!!! Why? However, when there is a "power" greater than myself I have been known to stop. For example when I was pregnant I was able to control myself. I still drank, but maybe 1/2 to 1 glass of wine once every 3-4 weeks. Nothing close to the 2+ bottles of wine I drink now. I have an extreme desire to stop so I thin that having antabuse in my system will help me. And yes, antabuse is a drug you take that provides extreme reactions. If you drink while taking this drug you have severe reactions, much worse than a normal drunk episode or hangover.