For me, my friends and family never thought
I ever had a drinking problem until I hit bottom
and wanted to leave this world without any
explaination except for my action of coming
in late from the clubs and taking a hand full
of pills.
They were all left scratching their heads
as to what in the world was going on with
me as I suffered emotionally inside from
unhappiness and my silent addiction to
alcohol.
When family intervened on me and sent
me to get help, I know it surprised them
that I had an addiction problem and entered
recovery. It was then that I began to live
a recovery life learning healthier ways to
live life without numbing my unhappiness
and other unhealthy actions like lieing,
deceiving, manipulating, dishonesty etc.
I also drank to fit in and after I got sober,
I didn't like being around others except
my recovery support who knew exactly
who and what I was with no questions
asked. It was then that family or friends
split apart because they didn't understand
me and I them. Like as if we were all living
on different planets.
Today, I still live my life without many
folks in it. Just the ones I communicate
within recovery and my spouse. The rest
of the family and friends are living at a
good comfortable distance away from me
and that's fine with me.
I love having one person to spend my
life with where there is no competition
for attention or to be heard. Seems as
tho what I have to say or share to normal
folks is not interesting enough for them.
To bad, because my husband and I have
a good, simple, sober, honest, fun life
in our own little world riding free on our
bike when we can enjoying all that life
has to offer us.
Im a happy camper in recovery. YAY..!!!!
