Originally Posted by
bookmaven 
I really need this thread tonight. Friday night, just got off work, both triggers a want to party. I am really pissed off about being sober today. Second guessing my commitment to sobriety, wondering if this is really what I want. Ugh.
Big Sigh, now that I got that out in the open, I can see it's the addictions creeping in and going back out there is not what I want.
But I do want SOMETHING more... Just don't know what that is.
Jumping out of my skin right now. I hate this part of being sober.
Riding the wave. This too shall pass.
I felt exactly that was after work yesterday. I even started to rationalise away my need to be sober ( and I am one manipulative bastard) . In the end I had my first sober week in over a year. Despite the rationalisations etc I didn't at any stage come close to actually seriously considering a drink thanks to the concept I learned here of my "alcoholic voice". It's been really helpful for me to personify my acoholic voice as representing the vile. slimy, snake oil salesman type person I become when I am drinkingp. And I know better than anyone what a piece of dirt that voice is and not to trust it.