a friend of mine uses that term. Asks me "you still on the wagon"?
I say "nope.... not on the wagon. Just not a drinker."
I think when we visualize sobriety as being 'on the wagon' we see it as something temporary and instable. Something we can 'fall off' of.
I'm sorry you find yourself staring down the gaping black maw of a relapse. That sucks and I know how it feels.
Time to move forward though. One step, one day at a time.
Forget about 'the wagon'..... instead, put one foot in front of the other and WALK.
Don't ride a wagon, travel down a different path, on your own two feet.
