It's tough, especially when jobs, office politics and all that get in the way, it drives me insane sometimes!!
The learning from this though is there is always going to be ups and downs in life, and we can't keep reaching for alcohol when life throws us a few curve balls, we need new tools in the toolbox to deal with life, it can be done, but don't beat yourself up, it's gonna take time to build up a few Sober muscles!!
Go for it again, it's in the past!!