Originally Posted by
sickofthiscrap 
I'm wondering if the rug is going to be pulled out from under me when I least expect it.
I wouldn't say that any of my urges have been a complete surprise, or felt like the rug being pulled out from under me. I expected them to happen, and they did. It's part of being an addict. Addiction doesn't just go away. You can just put down the drink, and some do it successfully and never pick up again. However, most do pick up again. (Those are the stats and in no way a prediction)
I think it's very important to realize than an urge is almost guaranteed to come to you at some point. Whether it's an image, a smell, a taste, a memory... it's likely to pop up at some point, seemingly spontaneously.
I have found a bit of peace in knowing (1) the urge will happen, (2) it's nothing more than a passing urge... and it usually passes within minutes for me, (3) I don't have to fear the urge, and (4) being mindful during an urge is the key for me to successfully navigate them.
Good luck
