Nocturnal its a cycle.
If you want out start punching holes in it that will weeken it then you can tear your way out.
I dunno what your drinking routine is or isnt. Me? i was a daily drinker. I had 2 jobs one i made money doing the other i just drank that money away in the after hours. day in and day out. I had to break that routine punch holes in that cycle start asking myself why? the more and more i questioned it the more I didnt drink and enable the cycle to continue the easier it got to simply not drink and the more I realized I had been so trapped for so many years and never new it.