I am a little gobsmacked at how..well, in my youth picking up the drink made me feel some sort of ability to get closer to others...to find fellowship...community.
My messages of late (well for the last year and a half really) continue to show me that everything..and I mean everything..is in "connection" with others..
being with..and there..for others. Community.
YET booze allowed basically allowed a "wall" between. It was a ruse...a lie.
Drinking and "being merry" eventually became me...alone.
It always was though. I was alone when I was drinking...no matter who or where I was with. It was about me..for me...in me. Me me me me me...
Not sure if I'm making sense here..
(Thanks JD..no not condescending..just...nice : )