Is it ever worth it? If I stay away from that first drink, I'll never have to worry about a hangover again.
I keep fresh in my mind what those days were like, the fear, anxiety and remorse.
I recommend you try this. Remember how you feel now and realize you never have to feel that way again.
Hope you make a quick recovery. I lived like that for twenty years until I admitted defeat. Haven't had a hangover since.
Best to you.