I guess I'm not sure what to do.
Time for some tough love (sorry, in that mode this week).
You know
exactly what you
should do. You just don't want to do it.
You have enough evidence to make an informed decision, but you're not allowing your mind to know what it knows. And what does your mind know? That he is, as we've discussed, a liar, a cheater, and a manipulator.
Why do you want anyone in your life who lies to you, cheats on you, and tries to manipulate you? What's in it for you? You love him. So what? He's not capable of absorbing that love. Why don't you love yourself? He mistreats you without remorse because he knows he can get away with it without paying a price.
Ultimately, you're going to make your own decisions, for better or for worse. But what I will tell you is it is a
certainty that if you allow him to have anything to do with your life, he will continue to hurt you. Frankly, I don't want to see that, especially when you have a say in all of this.
Remember: just because you love someone doesn't mean they should in your life.
And just because it hurts to do something hard -- i.e. get rid of someone -- doesn't mean you shouldn't do it if it's the right thing.