Hi dou really care. O I can relate so much to. Iv been in a same situation. All i can say is get out quik. An never go bk no matter how lonely u may b. There is so much more out there 4 u. Mayb not right away but I took time out 4 myself after I rid my self of a toxic co dependant man. I concentrated on tidy my home loosing weight by taken early morning walks every day an lost 2 stones in 3 months I get lonley but I just know that my time will come. Take care