Hello, and thank you for your honest post. I can sure relate to the voices telling me it is okay to drink again. I hear them. I know they lie to me. I love being sober. I was never able to say I love being drunk. I know I can blow it all with just one weak moment and giving into the crazy voice in my head. I want to be sober more then I want to drink. I think that is what keeps me sober. I am learning to laugh at the voice that says I can drink like a normal person, because I know that voice is from the past crazy drunk me. You can do this, and we are all here to help. Hang in there, you got this.